
My biggest issue was the walking meditation. The course included an equal amount of walking and sitting meditation. Since I had very little experience in walking meditation, I was really looking forward to learning that. But even after 44 hours of walking in slow motion back and forward, I still felt like that's all I was doing, merely walking - without meditating. Walking extremely slowly, trying to focus, failing and instead thinking. Thinking about everything that's ever happened to me, everyone I've ever met, everything that will ever happen in the future and so on. Frustrating as hell! Except thinking about all those things, I also started asking some questions (and you might want to enlighten me on some facts here):
- Does anyone get anything out of walking meditation?
- Why is there such a useless thing, why not just sit?
- What are the exact benefits of this terrible invention?
- Does it even qualify as meditation, why not just call it walking in slow motion?


There were around 70 meditators and only around eight were foreigners like me. Going to a monastery for a couple of days every once in a while to practice meditation seems pretty common in Thailand. During the other meditation courses that I've done on this trip, the foreigners have always dominated the scene. At Wat Ram Poeng it felt more as though I was doing something that is a part of the thai culture, not another tourist attraction. There were so few foreigners, that when one of the monks showed some new people around and he saw me, he said to them: "Look! Another foreigner! Say hello!", whereupon the new foreigners all obediently said "helloooo". I would love to see that happen in Sweden, hahaha... Most of my fellow meditators were women and the ages varied between 16 and 70. They didn't seem to care too much about my presence, but many smiled in a friendly way and some helped me when I seemed lost. A few young girls asked me questions in poor english about being at the monastery.

Now let me tell you about the food. Whoever said that Thai food is great, sure wasn't talking about the cafeteria style That food that I was served twice daily. Imagine that you don't get dinner, only breakfast at 6.15 and lunch at 10.30. Wouldn't you hope that the two meals you got would be tasty? And if they're not tasty, wouldn't you at least expect to get enough to satisfy your hunger? Well, if you answer yes to these to questions, I suggest you never set foot at Wat Ram Poeng. I shouldn't exaggerate too much, I did after all undertake the fourth precept " to abstain from false speech" only two days ago. So, to be honest: all the food wasn't absolutely terrible. Sometimes we even got ok food and sometimes I even got full. Let me remind you that I'm never picky with what I eat, as long as it's meatless. I love almost all food. Some of my friends even tell me that I'm not reliable when it comes to evaluationg food just because of that characteristic. Well, trust this: most of the time the food was disgusting! The chef obviously thought that slime and sugar could save any dish. So what's on the menu? Slimy, tasteless, gray meat imitations in a slimy, gray sauce and then a pink, milky, super sweet soup with little cubes of jello and weird wooden-textured fruits for desert. Are you getting hungry? My worst memory must have been the morning when I was starving for breakfast (after 17 hours of fasting) and I was served a small scoop of brown water with a tiny bit of rice swimming around in it, nothing else. One more thing about the food: after lining up, being served and instructed by the strict nun on where to sit, we all had to chant Buddhist songs in Thai for half an hour before we were aloud to dig in. And then the food wasn't just repulsive, it was also dead cold.


One: If you're a 15 year old school kid in the monastery school and you know the lastest trends, then you know just how to carry your pink plastic mug in your mouth as you're waiting in line for lunch. About 50 cool guys were all doing this, looking pretty damn street! Maybe I should be the first to bring this trend to Sweden? I'll buy a bunch of pink plastic mugs, sell them and istruct on how to carry it the chilled out way - in the mouth!
Two: One night I had a moth invasion in my bathroom. It looked like a battle field the next day. Nice...
All in all meditating at Wat Ram Poeng was ok. I wouldn't do it again and I'm glad I decided not to stay for three weeks. I did however enjoy the sitting meditation and I feel that it was beneficial for me in many ways.
Now I've decided to go to Laos earlier and then back to Thailand to take a diving certificate. After all, I think you'll agree with me when I say that diving has a great capacity of being far more stimulating than walking meditation...
Hahaha du är så härlig! Sjukt kul att läsa detta. Du skriver väldigt bra för övrigt, men det har jag säkert sagt innan=) Jag sitter på en filt i solen på Fårö och försöker avrunda semestern och ladda för nya jobbet på onsdag... Hade lite panik men har nu fått lite perspektiv på saker och ting. Walking meditation känns liiite jubbigare än ett morgonmöte med chefen. Faktiskt. Saknar dig min fina! xxx //Ellinor
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